暫時不再用msn space了

    回到了無名的家: http://www.wretch.cc/album/vivisin

 

 

 

  People coming and going...no one will ever stop for me.

 

  I don't give a shit to people who don't give a shit to me.

 

  But I do care about friends i cherish and who cherish me.

 

  I know people change and we will change, too.

 

  But please tell me and promise me...

 

  No matter how the world has changed and how people around us have changed...

  

  They will never be able to change US, as WE will always stay the same as you and me and that is what's called everlasting, FRIENDS.

 

  I cherish you, my friends.

最近在閉關閉得快得憂鬱症的時候 收到朋友的一封信 

心有戚戚焉~~

 

 

你不必追求優秀，但你可以做到良好

有一位同事美麗而又文靜，說話語速總是慢慢的，音量總是小小的，但很能說到人的心底裡去，你不知自己是什麼時候被她看穿的。

她的業績說不上驕人，但也無可挑剔；她嫁了相愛的普通人，日子過得波瀾不驚；她不要求孩子學這學那，雙休日一家三口就去遊玩；她每天都要午睡，每天都做健美操，生活很有規律；她從不嫉妒榮譽加身的同事也從不鄙薄偶犯錯誤的同事，只對勢利小人冷眼旁觀，卻也不惱，她覺得他們「不會有好的心態」與「好的結局」。

她心明如鏡絕頂聰明，與周圍一些拚盡全力卻活得七上八下不盡如意的人相比，我總覺得她的人生本來還可以更為出彩，而她沒有去做。

有一個非常難得的機會我們兩兩相對，她說起她父親的一句話奠定了她的人生。

讀初中時她體質非常弱，任何體育活動都沒法參加，學習又非常爭勝好強，偶爾有一門功課得不到第一就會難過就會自責。

父親說：以你的條件，你不必追求優秀，但你可以做到良好。

她很聽父親的話，比較輕鬆地將每門功課都保持了良好，同時她的體質也恢復到了良好的狀態，高中畢業她給自己的定位是考上一所普通大學，壓力不重反而發揮良好，她輕鬆地考上了重點大學，畢業時她選擇了中等城市的專業對口單位，她只求離父母近些，可以相互照料。

她娓娓地講述著這些，就如她不急不躁地構築她的良好人生。

良好人生肯定不被小說家與劇作家看好，因為良好人生不能構成他們的創作素材，他們更感興趣的是～～事業有成而家庭破裂，輝煌的陰影裡藏匿著墮落，幸福來臨卻緊隨著死神。～～有一項優秀就總有一項不及格 。

生活何嘗不是同樣地乖戾，倘若某個人的某個單項特別地優秀，他人生的另一重要項目，缺憾往往也特別地大。或者是，正因無可彌補的缺憾，才發憤地去追求優秀。所以良好人生的境界實在已經至高。

當一個人的事業、愛情、品行、心境乃至體格都能達到良好時，誰說那人生不夠優秀？

米蘭昆德拉有一本書叫「生活在他方」，我對這五個字有很好的聯想，我們的生活總是在遠方，都在想：如果明天我有錢，我就可以……。但是如果你現在賺少錢不快樂，就算你有再多的錢，我保證你也不會快樂。

如果你一個人的時候不會自得其樂，即使嫁了人，娶了老婆，別人跟你一起一樣不快樂。如果現在不懂得享受生活，未來也不會享受生活。

有人問什麼叫做「自由」？

所謂的「自由」就是：

你想要拒絕一個人的約會，已經不需要任何理由， 你有權力過自己要過的生活，有權力去自己要去的地方。其實生活很簡單。

男人跟女人都很喜歡在自己的人生設一個 deadline(死結)。比如說：我25歲一定要結婚，26 歲一定生孩子，30歲時一定要一男一女，31歲的時候一定要有房子……，所以很多決定就很草率。

如果剛開始你找的那個人就不對，往後再怎麼努力都不對。

有時候，我們常常會覺得婚結了，所有問題就沒了，那如果結了婚還有問題，就趕快把小孩生一生，其實你的問題在這個階段沒解決，在下個階段只會變大。

你對未來不用期待太多，期待太多……老實說挫折感會很深。

不如看看你現在做什麼事情會讓你覺得很自在，吸收到很多的東西，那個時候你才會覺得人生真的很充實。一個人如果太努力在活給別人看 ，就會痛苦得不得了。

今天如果你相信自己做得還不錯，不在乎別人怎麼看你的時候，你真的可以很自在。好東西就要和好朋友分享。

祝福大家每天都幸福、快樂

五月了耶!!! 好快啊

轉眼我就快畢業了

轉眼也又快老了一歲了 omg><

 

忍不住想跟大家分享一首我超愛 超超超感人的歌

夜深人靜的時候  或許是感同身受讓我一整個很想哭!!!

and the lyrics deeply moves me, too...

just wanna share with every of u!!

 

p.s 很有感覺的時候 中文歌詞就突然迸出來了

     不過不是逐字翻譯 單純憑感覺

 

Cardigans - Communication Lyrics

Communication

 

For 27 years I've been trying
to believe and confide in
different people I found
Some of them got closer than others
and some wouldn't even bother
and then you came around
I didn't really know what to call you
You didn't know me at all
but I was happy to explain
I never really knew how to move you
so I tried to intrude through
the little holes in your veins
And I saw you

這些年來我不斷嘗試

去相信去愛我所遇見的人

有些人和我更為親近 有些人對我不屑一顧

然後 你出現了

我不知道該怎麼稱呼你

你並不認識我

但我很樂意介紹我自己

我從不知道該如何感動你

所以我試著併入你心裡  你的血液裡

然後 我望見了你

But that's not an invitation 但這是被動的
that's all I get 這就是我得到的
If this is communication 如果這是我們之間的對話
I disconnect 我不懂你
I've seen you, I know you 我看到你 我認識你
but I don't know how to connect 可是我不知道怎麼感覺你
so I disconnect 我感覺不到你

You always seem to know where to find me 你總是知道如何找到我
and I'm, still here behind you 而我總 依然在你身後
in the corner of your eye 在你眼中的角落裡
I never really learnt how to love you 我總學不會怎麼去愛你
but I know that I love you 但我確信我是真的愛你
through the hole in the sky 當我望著天空角落的時候
where I see you 當我望著你的時候
and that's not an invitation that's all I get 但這是一廂情願  這就是我得到的
If this is communication 如果這是我門之間的對話
I disconnect 我感覺不到你

I've seen you, I know you 我看見你  我認識你
but I don't know how to connect 但我不懂你
so I disconnect 我感覺不到你

Well this is an invitation 這應該是兩情相悅的
it's not a threat 不該是威脅
If you want communication 如果你要我門之間的對話
that's what you get 這就是你得到的
I'm talking and talking 我不斷說話 說話
but I don't know how to connect 但我不知道該如何讓你懂我
and I hold a record for being patient 我一值很有耐心  對於你的猶疑不決
with your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me 我需要你 而你要我在你身邊
but I don't know how to connect 可是我不知道要怎麼讓你感覺到我
so I disconnect 我感覺不到你
I disconnect 感覺不到你

 

 

    　上次去Tesco買smoked salmon 看到finest (Tesco食物有分finest 一般Tesco牌 還有value) 在特價

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

在Stathclyde那年我的人生在許多方面有徹底的改變:

 

1.      在那之前的22年裡  我從未摺過一天的棉被:

每當我親愛的爸爸媽媽 再三好言規勸 循循善誘 值到惡言相向

我還是不想摺棉被  而且我的理由很機車

每次他們叫我摺棉被 22年來我的回答都是

“拜託 年輕人哪有人在摺棉被的啊”

“為何要摺棉被啊 晚上就要睡了啊”

“我朋友根本沒人在摺棉被的啊!”

 

2.      我最痛恨的事就是打掃

我覺得打掃是一件超無聊又浪費時間的事

可是這也不代表我是一個很髒的人

每當我發覺我的房間開始變髒的時候

我就會開始一哭二鬧三上吊的拜託我爸幫我打掃

再不然我小時候最常做的事  就是給我弟錢 (10塊或20塊) 叫他幫我打掃XD

 

3.      我的房間和書桌總是很凌亂

打掃可以偶爾藉助別人的力量

可是我可不希望其他人每天來幫我整理房間

(基本上我連在家房門永遠都是鎖住的)

而我的房間就是我個人的小小天地  沒人管得了我在裡面要怎麼搞

 

這結果就是

每當我ㄚ咪不小心看到我開門 她就會狠狠的被嚇到 

因為我的房間總是非常artistic 非常隨性

而且十次有九次是處於”沒路走”的狀態

(意指地板上東西太多雜誌衣服褲子海報書oooxxx)

想要進來拿東西還得突破重圍才可以做到

 

 

 

話說我為何突然要寫這一篇自取其辱的文章呢?

其實這是在我這兩天努力打掃屋子時頭腦空空想東想西的感想文

 

我打掃屋子並不是因為我現在突然變得愛打掃了

老實說我還是非常的討厭打掃

只是我必須說我現在徹徹底底的變成一個非常愛整潔 極度有調理的人

(不好意思 我的改變總是很極端 不作則已一作驚人那種)

而且我再也忍不住我外國室友的髒亂 (詳情不便詳述 反正很令人吐血就是了)

然後我在打掃時  雖然心裡很x

可是同時間也充滿了感恩

感謝有幾個對我的影響特別重大的人:

 

1. 我的好朋友Estella小姐:

    Estella雖然神經不是普通的大條  可是他的乾淨整潔神經可一點都不大條

    他雖然很少煮飯  可是他總不辭辛勞的把廚房打掃得乾乾淨淨 一塵不染

    他的房間雖然東西很多  但總是整整齊齊香噴噴

    看一來就是一個很女孩兒的夢幻小天地

 

2. 對我產生相當impact的榮榮小姐:

    榮榮對我造成的影響與Estella有過之而無不及

    雖然我跟他沒那麼常在一起

    但他的一言一行一舉一動徹底的讓我感覺到大家閨秀該有的條件與氣質

    榮榮的房間總是驚人的乾淨有質感 (他每天打掃房間廁所 窗台種好幾盆不同的小花 還會固定買花來擺設)

    當我看到他竟然可以把百年老屋Andrew Ure Hall

    改造成如此驚艷  

    還有她這麼注重detail的生活習慣時

    深深的激發了我向上的心

 

3. 我最親愛的室友Phyllis和Ingi小姐:

    人家總說你現在回想以前曾經讓你很嘔的人事物

    之後想起來肯定是對你影響最大的

    這句話真是我不能同意你再多

    (但我不是說你們很嘔啦 呵呵)

 

   想當初Phyllis規定我們要輪流打掃廁所的時候

   我想到都快哭了

   OS: 我的媽啊 國小整節活動打掃廁所每次都想盡辦法偷溜了

   沒想到多年後的今天 我竟然要幫人家打掃廁所喔XD

 

   然後真的輪到我要打掃時  我很不得已的馬馬虎虎

   亂擦一通想於魚目混珠了事

  

   沒想到  沒想到

   那天晚上小P 同學竟然跟我另一個室友說

   “Victoria 有打掃廁所嗎  我沒聞到清潔劑的味道耶”

 

   XD Oh My God

   好一個Phyllis 真是讓我才慚愧到極點><

 

  非常感謝Phyllis 在我們一起住的那一年扮演著

  衛生股長的責任

  而且如果她看不慣 會非常義證嚴詞的提出來

  要大家合作

 

  這實在是inspire me太深了

  現在如果我看不慣我室友的生活習慣

  管他三七二十一 默默承受的好人不是我會扮演的腳色 哼哼

 

  如果Phyllis是衛生股長

  咱門Ingi就是愛乾淨的 風紀股長

 

  我還記得以前我回寢室 總是喜歡把包包 雨傘 剛買的東西  有的沒有

  隨手一扔  放在桌上或沙發上

  然後回我房間忘我的聽音樂上網

 

  可是 這時候我可愛的風紀股長就會來敲我的房門

   “Victoria, are the things yours?? Do you mind putting them back in your room, otherwise the kitchen looked very messy.”

 

  當聽到時實在覺得很XD 我放東西又不是放整個kitchen

  你吃東西就在你的區域吃就好了啊 我包包放在桌上有影響到你嗎?

 

  好了  報應  我現在看到我室友凌亂的東西放在餐桌上

  甚至連他冰箱裡一堆亂擠  不知道放了幾年的食物

  我真的有強烈想把他們全部塞進拉嘰桶的衝動!!!

  感覺就是一整個 很“ㄠˋ ㄗㄚˋ”

 

  真是感謝Ingi風紀股長糾正了很多我個人不自覺的壞習慣

 

  好了  要感謝的人還很多  可是我得繼續想我的論文了

  希望我室友的不良習慣可以有所改進

  不然她就會了解我虛假的笑容背後其實是快要凍不住的熊熊怒火

  看吧

  這就是所謂的風水輪流轉

 

 

 

在我把Tesco Sansbury M&S的cheese全部嘗試過之後

昨天我來到號稱:

"Neal's Yard Dairy is a London artisanal cheese retailer and cheesemaker, described as "London's foremost cheese store." 買了兩種看起來很有病態美的英國cheese 因為我跟店員講我要seasonal 的 所以兩種都是goat or sheep's milk

 

Shepherds Crook/Little Ryding

Little Ryding

變態的外表很吸引我

因為外觀一整個發霉  就是那種一般看到的黑色和深綠的霉 表面一層薄薄white rind

但吃起來倒是蠻平淡的

他的霉感覺就像一般French brie的白霉 沒有很獨特的味道 雖然口感層次稍為豐富

但cheese本身吃起來就是偏凝固狀的 feta 口味強度大概是2

 

"This cheese is made from goat's milk by Mary Holbrook. It is vegetariancheese, usually produced in the shape of flat-topped  pyramid. The natural rind, dusted with black ash, is covered with a white mould. Tymsboro has the taste of lemon sorbet and apples. Affinage takes two to four weeks."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   無奈啊無奈

 

  雖然休了半個多月的好假  回來之後馬上陷入無止盡的報告深淵中

 

  除了到附近的雜貨店買東西外 算算我已經十幾天窩在陋室裡沒出門了XD

 

  坐太久加上沒有運動  原已改善很多很多的背痛竟然又發作了><

 

  昨天躺在床上back rest 盯著天花板  想著這次論文要寫什麼

 

  想著接下來的contextual study 要怎麼做 不自覺眼淚竟然流了下來

 

  好久好久沒有哭過了  昨天的我竟然忍不住哭了...

 

  是不是我不夠堅強 不夠tough   沒有承受挑戰的本錢??

 

  到底怎樣的人生才是適合我的??

 

  兢兢業業的工作 賺大錢 然後買名牌包 名牌鞋 偶爾出國渡假住五星級飯店 好好休息犒賞自己

 

  還是我就平平淡淡當個academic 教教我的書相夫教子 種種花 作作蛋糕  過著平淡但愜意的人生

 

  有時候人生要怎麼走也不是我可以完全掌握或改變的  而現在走到了這一步要我放棄投降實在不甘心

  

  唉  還能說些什麼呢??

 

  我現在只希望順利把這個報告完成  然後買瓶好酒  好的camembert  好好休息一天

 

  然後繼續投入我的proposal 與CS...   一直到五...月...底........

 

  對不起 可是我想再去度假了 工作狂的人生不適合我XD

 

  去哪裡都好 只要脫離倫敦一週就好!!

 

  然後我非常非常非常期待七月初跟家人在英法比利時的旅行!

 

  這次要當獨當一面的小導遊 讓我非常非常的期待和小緊張 哈哈~~

 

  人生還是有很多值得期待的事的  我終究會ascend from報告煉獄

 

  總之  大原則不會改變...enjoy my life...快樂最重要!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

oh...babe finally i can upload the song...a song from Elva's lastest album, "然後"

well..i really like the song..though the lyrics dipict the scene of a couple arguing..

but somehow the feeling of sweeeeeetness penetrating into my mind..and then, my soul..haha!

然後得到抱歉　然後得到眼淚滿臉
然後得到自己　送給自己自我欺騙
然後笑也不甜　然後也不能說再見
然後只是一個　不具任何意義
話與話的中間的連結點~~~~

What a magic catalyst music is...oh excuse me...i just really like POP!! 

To dear all who have ever read my blog..plz be sure to click in from the

"vivavivisin homepage"

http://vivisin.spaces.live.com/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c02_owner=1

Here u go~~~"and then" u will be able to listen to the music that i carefully selected...as i always do!

 

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呆在家裡寫報告感覺很悶…

想寫網誌卻寫不出來的感覺更是令人鬱悶…

沒想到從小到大總以文思泉湧自豪的自己…

出國不到兩年…竟三不五時就出現想寫東西卻寫不出來的窘境...而且更糟的是次數越來越頻繁!!   

或許...也不是真的寫不出東西來...

只是...沒那個時間...沒那個耐性...

沒時間多看課外書...沒耐性靜下來好好寫東西...

每天接觸的都是不需要太多修飾的"報導式文學"

報章雜誌...journals..textbooks..

跟以前不是看史詩英詩或是十四行詩的刺激差太多...

這也難怪越難越寫得出什麼有深度的東西...

能引起共鳴的東西...

或是能讓自己或別人感動的東西...唉

 

這或許也是國際化 莘莘學子積極想要往上爬的悲哀之一吧

在努力改變自己融入國際大環境的同時...

卻不自覺地漸漸失去本有最珍貴的東西...文化 

還有 最難能可貴...

但也卻越來越抽像的..."真我"

 

 

時間和境遇所造成的改變是令人難以置信的…

而且往往比我們想像中大且快...

 

回想當年大學聯考填自願時...

本人最唾棄的系就是所有關於 ”business” 的系

總覺得像我這麼literary + artistic的<文藝青年>

怎樣也不會去填那種什麼 經濟 會計 等等 聽起來就很俗氣的東東 ( )

 

當時的自己覺得理所當然就是讀個外文系à

x大文學所

然後　到牛津　劍橋之類的拿個文學博士  

(哈哈哈 呵呵呵 = =)

然後到大學教書　　

像表姐一樣當個令人敬重又有氣質的"教授"...

 

看看現在的自己...多了點世故…多了點銅臭味…

少了點浪漫...少了點天真...滿口生意經...

怎麼看都難想像我以前是什麼樣子...

 

 

Well...

Gone are the days i spent a whole afternoon reading novels in the coffee shop...

Gone are the days i simply wanna leave my brain empty and swim like a fish... 

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單身的日子就是endless的曖昧不清　爛桃花　等待　與鬼迷心竅輪流交替著….

單純的一廂情願或許不會造成什麼大影響…

但我不得不說鬼迷心竅的感覺很不好…

距離是一個問題…時間是一個問題…

可是思念又是另一個問題…

 

好人總是註定要被發好人卡...

理想跟現實總是有段差距...對愛情而言更是如此...

喜歡常常就在那麼一瞬間發生...而沒感覺就算過了十年還是起不了化學作用...

 

似乎我對天秤座的男生特別沒有抵抗力...??!  真是夠了!

 

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“To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance…”

引自英國詩人Oscar Wilde 的話...(偶爾總得回想一下)

這世界上有很多沒禮貌沒教養或是沒道德的人…

可以的話當然要盡量避免與這一類的人混在一起…

但若是不幸遇到了…千萬不要讓自己受到影響

因為跟這種人計較..或是搞得自己不開心 基本上比遇到他/她還要倒楣一百倍...

so..."just be Good and be Cool"…which is always the best policy!!

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喔 Vivian 姊姊好正

以前我總是覺得他喜歡裝可愛 沒什麼大腦 唱歌又比我難聽

可是後來我漸漸看到她的付出與努力  所以就越來越肯定她了

尤其每次看到一個年過三十的女孩子還能保養得這麼好 (比很多年輕美眉都好)

我就覺得非常了不起

我知道明星本來就 多的是錢 天生麗質 加上現代科技發達

可是我還是覺得Vivian是極少數 "自我控制力極高" "自我要求高"

又是個明星中我覺得極少數比較真實誠懇的

其實還有一個小小的原因我會特別提到她...

是因為我發覺他身高體重似乎跟我一樣(或許看起來不一樣)...

然後都有"原住民"血統...

(只是我們是不同國的原住民  呵呵)

然後他是雙魚我是雙子 (這點好像有點牽強 不過至少不會像"金牛"跟雙子差那麼多XD)

所以就會特別把她當成one of my role models...

(請注意我沒有說我想成為徐若瑄 我是指她專業的態度是值得學習的對象 所以請不要兔我槽= =")

anyway...長這麼大我終於了解自我控制有多麼的重要...in every aspect..

高中時候的自我控制是當時心血來潮覺得清心寡慾很酷...

大學時沒了約束不自覺得過著有點放蕩的生活...但我只在界線內犯規...

出國後漸漸發覺最好省時間省錢省犯錯的方式就是從良好的自我控制開始...

不敢說現在可以百分百做到...但至少我發覺我越來越進步了...

還蠻高興的說 呵 

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很快的隨著international retailing報告和presentation的完成...

第二學期也即將進入尾聲了...

雖然窩在家寫報告很悶...但其實我讀了很多東西...覺得小有成就感...

現在的我沒什麼大目標...只想趁所剩不多的碩士生涯 把基本的專業知識打穩... 

我知道在實務經驗方面我目前還是非常缺乏...

但相信趁現在打好學術方面的基礎...

進入職場後 我可以學得很快...再加上我不是好高騖遠的人...

所以...呵呵 總之就是加油吧~~

 

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有朋自遠方來  不亦樂乎~~

高中時的學長(其實是魏小航的哥哥魏小邠)退伍後要來英國自助旅行...

到倫敦那週我剛交完報告...當地陪當然義不容辭...

畢竟吃喝玩樂是我最大的興趣跟專長 呵呵呵呵呵

(不過要看戲請自行蒐集資料...這裏上演的戲太多了... 我只負責提供逛街觀光及美食資訊  呵呵)

接下來的15天的德義之行也是很令人期待的...

這次簽証很lucky的拿到半年...所以下次要去哪呢??

葡萄牙 摩洛哥? 芬蘭?? 或是冰島...???

 

 

 

天漸漸暖了...

春天到了...我看到花園的鬱金香開了...

或許...是阿姆斯特丹吧~

 

 

  樓下廚房傳來陣陣的水餃香

  聞起來好像是媽媽有時會做的高麗菜豬肉水餃

  老實說我並沒有特別喜歡吃...

  但此時此刻卻忍不住懷念了起來

 

  我已經吃飽了 可是肚子似乎又餓了...

 

  中國新年快到了  今年是我的本命年

  算算已經是第二個年頭沒和家人親戚一起過年了

  我不是個太念家的人 可是沒有家人在身邊的除夕夜

  想起來多少還是有點感傷

 

  兩年沒看到蘇澳阿公阿嬤了

  希望他們一切安好

  明年初二我一定回去和你們一起吃飯...幫阿嬤洗碗...希望!!!

   

 

  去年的我有Glasgow的大家庭和我一起吃年夜飯...

  有整桌滿滿的豐盛年菜...

  還有寫著恭喜發財裡面卻沒有錢的的大紅包...

   今年呢???

 

  還好倫敦的冬天不是太冷...我很忙...

  不然我應該會有點想哭吧??!

 

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  想家...已經是好久沒有的事了

  我知道長大本來就要離開家...可是不知道為什麼

  這次感覺離家特別遙遠.......

  一年後的我...又會是在離家多遠的哪個地方???

 

  我很慶幸可以來到倫敦

  也很感謝眼前的這一切

 

  只是  有時在這樣的一個大城市顯得有點寂寞 有點茫然

  別人總是說我很勇敢......卻不知那是因為我只有我自己

 

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  聽說明天倫敦會下雪

  據說是七年來最厚的雪

  預測有五吋那麼高...

  比起去年一片雪花都沒有的冬天

  今年倫敦的雪異常的多..

  是我從蘇格蘭帶來的吧....呵呵

  (很巧的是我在Glasgow時也遇上20年來最冷的冬天...笑)

  

 

 

  有假期我總是第一個計畫的人...

  到北歐玩到開學前才回來...

  剛開學就在訂耶誕節機票...

  耶誕假期還沒到就在計畫復活節...

  等不及復活節一心又在想到哪裡過我的中國年...

 

 

  不是我玩心太重...只是我知道還能這樣玩的時間不多了

  很快地就要進入成人的世界...

  一個必須要面對現實問題 截然不同的世界

  還好現在的我已經漸漸能夠接受 回到現實不等於夢想的破滅..

  而只不過是另一種生活方式的開始而已..

 

  明天一早得赴義大利使館的appointment

  期待已久的德義之行 終於得以在復活節付諸實現

  出國後我成了名副其實的旅行策劃人

  感謝爸媽讓我有機會好好看看這個世界...

  留下一輩子都難以忘懷的美好回憶

 

  寫到這裡 突然想起了我們最棒的西班牙蔚藍地中海岸之旅

  我永遠不會忘記那每天晚上九點吃飯吃到十一點的日子...

  每天打開門就望見蔚藍地中海的日子...

  每天陽光美酒美食渾渾噩噩醉生夢死的日子...

   

  還有Dana Natasha

  請不要忘記我們每天有郭富城跟黎明, 一起唱著真的怕了的日子

  (笑)

 

 

 

  新年的小願望

  或許不是很小...

  

  一直很嚮往有一個可以和我一起背著包包在歐洲大城小鎮到處旅行的人...

  和我一樣可以很簡單也可以很複雜的人...

 

  我想和他一起  一直走 一直走 一直走.........

  從太陽升起...走到太陽落下

  偶爾停下來看看路邊小花...偶而停下來相視而笑...

 

  我們要一起親身體驗以前在電視上才看過的異國美景...

   一起嚐遍各地最道地的特色小吃...不管多怪..都無所謂

  而我要用相機 努力 記錄這一切..

  用我小小的腦袋 用力 把這些回憶一點一滴地刻畫下來....

  永遠 永遠 都不要忘記

 

 

 

  和我一起去旅行...好不好???

 

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  自由的日子似乎離我很遙遠了

  純真的感覺更是那樣的遙不可及

 

  新的一年...我決定不要想太多

  眼前雖然有很多 很多 很多 的不確定...

  但我很慶幸的是這次我可以比較有信心地說對自己說

  我準備好了...

  

  新年快樂

  情人節快樂

  一起好好度過這一年

 

   

 

 

   

 

 

 

 

 

   

Published: Tuesday, February 06, 2007

By Samantha Conti

 

Last February, when British designer Gareth Pugh sent his models down the catwalk in sci-fi Sith getups and inflated black puffer pieces, it summed up the best — and worst — of London.

On one hand, there's glorious and unbridled creativity, and on the other, a complete disregard for commerce.

"That collection was ‘so London,'" said one front-row fashion journalist. "But, frankly, I was frightened when I saw it. There was nothing salable there."

But London is changing its ways. Designers and fashion industry bodies are making efforts to reconcile those two battling elements, pushing themselves to compete in a business-driven world while still channeling their creative zing.

And, after all, it's the creativity that keeps London — the city that spawned Vivienne Westwood, Mary Quant, John Galliano, Alexander McQueen and a host of other fashion icons — burning.

"There is a raw energy and vision on these runways that's not tempered by business or commerce," said Michael Fink, Saks Fifth Avenue vice president and women's fashion director. "What you're seeing on the runways are totally personal statements. In the end, you never know where you're going to find the talent, or who is going to make it through, but you have to thank them all for trying."

Tom Ford, honorary chairman of Fashion Fringe, the annual competition for young design talent in London, concurred.

"There's not the same pressure here from big businesses — and the stakes aren't so high — so the designers are freer to express themselves. And it's that freedom of expression that makes fashion move forward," he said.

Hilary Riva, chief executive officer of the British Fashion Council, said London was by no means the biggest or strongest of the four major international fashion weeks, but she believed it was the most innovative. "It's great at launching talent, and pushing boundaries. Anything goes here," she said.

To some, however, that's one of London's big problems. Colin McDowell, founder and creative director of Fashion Fringe, said he believed there was too much hype — and not enough financial or business support — around emerging London designers. And that's damaging to everyone.

 

There is a terrible tendency in London to become hysterical. It is the most hysterical fashion city, and the failure rate of designers is huge," he said.

"We tend to hype our designers dramatically, but then there is no backup. The pattern is that everyone gets talking about a certain ‘fabulous' designer and then three seasons later, they're gone," said McDowell.

That was one reason McDowell founded Fashion Fringe. Each year, the winner gets a 100,000 pound ($196,000) prize as well as business advice and connections. Since Fashion Fringe began, McDowell has hooked up winners with such companies as Italian manufacturer Aeffe.

Under Riva, a former mass market retailer, the BFC is working to fund designers' budding businesses. Like Fashion Fringe, BFC supports sponsorships that are meant to nurture the designers — and ensure they remain in London.

Indeed, this city is often a victim of its own success: If designers are very talented — and very lucky — they get snapped up by the big fashion and luxury groups. Cases in point: Galliano and McQueen.

Others, like Matthew Williamson, Luella Bartley, Boudicca, Hussein Chalayan, Sophia Kokosalaki and Jenny Packham, have deserted London's shores for New York, Paris or Los Angeles in a bid to build their profiles and businesses internationally.

Even Paul Smith, the doyen of London designers and a London Fashion Week stalwart, has been mulling a move to Paris to show his growing women's collection.

"We're constantly thinking about showing in Paris," said Smith. "We've always showed our men's collection there, and we're established with a showroom. As the women's line becomes more established, we realize that in Paris we'd get more attention and coverage for the line."

Smith also brought up another problem that London is constantly grappling with: the show schedule. "Editors can only be out of the office a certain number of days — and they often choose Paris, New York and Milan over London," he said.

To ensure that London's designers thrive and stay put in the city, the BFC continues to work with Topshop and its longstanding New Generation sponsorship program, which supports emerging talent. Past NewGen designers have been McQueen, Kokosalaki, Rafael Lopez, Julien Macdonald, Antonio Berardi and Clements Ribeiro.

 

This season, the BFC is also working with Westfield, the Australian retail property giant, on a new sponsorship called Fashion Forward that aims to help London's more established designers continue to run their businesses. Westfield plans to open a mega shopping mall in the British capital in 2008.

This season's winners are Giles Deacon, Jonathan Saunders and Sinha-Stanic.

"It's tough for these designers to grow here and expand their labels, so we want to help. And it's also a great opportunity for us," said David Slade, director of leasing at Westfield. "As these designers get bigger, we'll talk to them about selling with us in London."

Sponsorship or not, Deacon — one of this city's runway stars — is staying in London. "It works from a logistical point of view. I live and work here, and put the collection together here," he said, "and I am a big believer in London as a creative force. I want to support that."

Deacon is also one of a growing number of London designers who are business-minded. Besides his signature collection, Giles, he'll be designing the luxury women's collection for the British company Daks, which makes its debut in Milan next month.

The designer is also creating a capsule collection called Gold for the British mass market retailer New Look that will bow this spring.

Other designers, including Christopher Kane, Roksanda Ilincic, Marios Schwab, Richard Nicoll and Todd Lynn, are all becoming known among buyers for their business smarts as well as their creative minds. It's still unclear whether London will be able to continue juggling creativity with commerce. But no matter what happens, this city will always have its die-hard fans.

"Fashion is a reflection of the times, and this is always such an inspiring city. It's never inhibited and there's a thriving youth culture," said Julie Gilhart, fashion director at Barneys New York and a front-row fixture year after year at the London shows. "Some seasons, there's a lot more to buy than others — but the dynamic in London never changes."

 

This activity will melt away the pounds, tone your flabby bits and leave you on an emotional high.

Yet the form of exercise destined to become the fitness trend of 2007 does not require gym membership or a personal trainer. All you need to do is walk.

"Walking is a refreshing alternative to complicated aerobic routines and over-priced gym memberships," says personal trainer Lucy Knight, author of a new book on the exercise.

"It is free, enjoyable and already a part of everyday life. All you need to do is correct your technique, walk faster and for longer, and you will lose weight."

There is much evidence of the benefits of walking. Scientists at the University of Pittsburgh recently revealed that overweight people who walked briskly for 30 to 60 minutes a day lost weight even if they didn't change any other lifestyle habits.

Another American study found that people who walked for at least four hours a week gained less weight (an average 9lb less) than couch potatoes as they got older.

Last year, researchers at the University of Colorado found that regular walking helped to prevent peripheral artery disease (which impairs blood flow in the legs and causes leg pain in one-fifth of elderly people).

Walking can even prevent colds. Researchers at the University of Massachusetts medical school found that people who walked every day had 25 per cent fewer colds than those who were sedentary.

Because walking is a weight-bearing exercise, it can also help prevent the bone disease osteoporosis.

"Bones are like muscles in the way that they get stronger and denser the more demands you place on them," Knight says. "The pull of a muscle against a bone, together with the force of gravity when you walk, will stress the bone - which responds by stimulating tissue growth and renewal."

Best of all, walking makes you feel good about yourself. "For people suffering from depression, walking three to four times a week for 30 minutes has been shown to enhance their mood," says Knight.

Even if a 20-minute power walk at lunchtime is all you manage, after six weeks it could be comparable to a course of psychotherapy, psychologists at the University of Illinois found.

Here's how to walk your way to weight loss and wellness . . .

How much, how often?

Health experts recommend that we should walk 10,000 steps a day (about five miles) to stay healthy, yet most Britons walk only 4,500 steps.

You would probably need to tot up at least 16,000 steps a day to lose weight.

Knight suggests the following workout plans, depending on your level of fitness. With each, you should aim to progress by increasing the duration of your walk by five minutes every two weeks, and the intensity by walking faster.

"In just three months, the results should speak for themselves," says Knight.

• Beginners:

Monday to Saturday: Walk ten minutes at a moderate pace

Sunday: Walk slowly for 20 minutes

• Intermediates:  

Monday: Rest

Tuesday to Friday: Walk for 25 minutes at a moderate pace one day, 30 minutes the next Saturday: Walk 20 minutes fast

Sunday: Walk 45 minutes at a moderate pace

• Advanced:

Monday: Rest

Tuesday to Friday: Walk 45 minutes at a moderate pace one day and 50 minutes the next day

Saturday: Walk 50 minutes at a fast pace

Sunday: Walk 60 minutes at a moderate pace

Perfect your technique

To burn fat quickly and effectively, you should master power-walking.

"Without it you will struggle to increase your pace and your weight loss will plateau," says Knight. Stand tall with your arms by your sides and pull your navel towards your spine so that your core muscles are working.

Focus your eyes five to six metres ahead and keep your shoulders relaxed. Bend your elbows at a 90-degree angle and cup your hands lightly, rather than clenching your fists.

Leading with the heel, take a step forward with your right foot and move your arms in opposition (i.e. as your left arm moves forward, your right moves back).

Transfer your weight through the heel of your right foot.

"It is very easy, once you start concentrating on the movement, to forget about breathing," says Knight.

"Try to get into a pattern, counting the number of steps to each in-and-out breath, making it the same each time."

Vary the terrain

Adding hills to your route will speed up calorie burning.

"On really steep inclines, it's not unusual for even a fit person's heart rate to increase by about 20 per cent," says Knight. Going downhill, you have to contract your leg muscles to work against gravity and slow your descent.

Walking on softer surfaces, such as mud, sand or grass, also uses more energy than walking on concrete. Every time your foot hits the ground, it creates a small depression so that the leg muscles must work harder to push upwards and forwards for the next step.

Walking on cobblestones or rocky ground may have even more benefits. Physiologists at the Oregon Research Institute have found cobblestone walking lowers blood pressure and improves balance.

The uneven surfaces may stimulate acupressure points on the soles of the feet, regulating blood pressure. Because it is challenging, it will also burn more calories.

Walking styles

Think walking is boring? Then try these alternatives:

Nordic walking, which uses skilike poles, has proven benefits.

Professor John Pocari, an exercise physiologist at the University of Wisconsin, who has studied its effects, says using walking poles forces people to pick up their pace and work harder without realising it.

"Just the fact that you are using your arms through a greater range of motion than normal means you burn more calories," says Pocari.

On average, people use 20 per cent more calories when they use poles. Participants in his studies increased their upper body strength by 40 per cent and reduced impact on vulnerable hips, ankles and knees by 26 per cent compared with running.

Mall walking, called "mallercise" in the U.S., was originally devised by doctors, who encouraged cardiac patients to incorporate indoor walking in shopping malls to hasten their rehab.

"It is a fantastic way to walk as you don't breathe in toxic car fumes, shopping centres are usually open seven days a week and good weather is guaranteed," says Knight.

Treadmills, because they are sprung, offer softer and easier terrain than a hard road, placing less strain on your joints, says Knight. This makes them a good option for people with joint or back problems.

The downside is that, on a flat setting, they don't require the same level of exertion, so set them on a slight incline.

The National Step-o-Metre initiative by the British Heart Foundation and the Countryside Agency aims to get everyone walking.

Through a GP, practice nurse or health visitor, all NHS patients who sign up to the scheme can borrow a pedometer free to help them keep track of how far they walk each day.

 

oh my God! I can't imagine that i haven't been working out regularly for...almost HALF A YEAR!!! GOD!

 

OMG! Though the horrifying figure on the scale doesn't vary much...but i can feel....well..the fat!!!

 

I've found my meat softened and the desirable distance between my thighs become closer...><

 

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How i miss the days i used to work out every single day and enjoy the refreshing moments after i got out from the water~~~

 

How i miss the time i can work out in the gym sweating seeing my figure getting closer to the ideal shape~~~

 

How i miss the moments i clearly feel the firmness of the muscles when showering after swimming in the pool~~~

 

How i miss the days spent outdoors with people i love and get my body and soul fully and entirely rejuvenated and energized!!

 

 

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I really wanna work out!! i really wanna sweat a lot!! i really wanna back to the water like fish!!

 

 

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Oh!  How i used to LOVE city life but not until i moved to such a beautifully complicated city have i realized that

 

cosmopolitan lives are just not as lovely as i had thought!!!

 

I have to sacrifice sth for that...something i used to love...something i used to enjoy a lot...something ever so endearing to me!

 

It just seems that simple life has gone farther and farther to me now.......

 

Hope i dun need to fight a lot to remain my natural simplicity and pureness and still stay true with myself....HOPEFULLY!!

 

  well... so many bad things happened to me recently...

 

  Honestly speaking i felt sort of sad and disappointed...

 

  Though i kept telling myself and these will all pass and it's not the end of the world...

 

 

 

  The MP4 was broken; it was okay...cuz Sandy is coming and she can help me take it back to Trump...

 

  and he will help me with that...(thanks a lot Trump! )

 

  The loss of meterial stuff is not such a very big deal cuz they are not sth which cannot be gained back...

 

 

  However, i felt that sometimes it's tough and sort of helpless alone here in such a big city...

 

  lovely and amazing while dark and fearful at the same time...

 

 

  I've got some good friends here...but we are not that close that i can tell everything to them...

 

  Also, they are new comers in London as well and are sometimes helpless themselves...

 

  In addtion...everyone has got his own problems and i just dun wanna bother others for my own...

 

 

 

 

  I know life is tough...but the thing is it still goes on..

 

  If i wanna survive...i have to conquer my distress and fear and carry on with it...

 

  I hope I were not alone...but the thing is here im actually alone...

 

 

 

 

 

  I wanna survive and i wanna live...

 

 

 

  I hope i can conquer all these and become happier and stronger...

 

 

  I just told my parents that I dun have to buy lottery cuz i am already lucky enough...

 

  Indeed i really think so and ive got nothing to complain...

 

 

  Yes im lucky but maybe i need more challenges...

 

  More challenges to grow and more challenges to become a better self...

 

  I used to live with comfort and ease and get almost whatever i wanted without much effort...

 

  Now I am faced with troubles and uncertainties but i cannot surrender...

 

  Things will turn out in my way as long as i try and persist...

 

  Stronger and happier i really hope i will be...

 

 

  再也沒有這麼 !![雖ㄙㄨㄟ]!! 過了............................

 

  先是cabin luggage 從手扶梯上摔下來 新買沒用過的MP4整個被砸碎

 

  再來昨天化妝包不見   一些小化妝品 新的筆 還有新買打回台灣的電話卡十磅  全飛了...

 

  這都不打緊.......................

 

  今天下午我居然....................................在光天化日下......被搶了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

  靠靠靠靠靠!!! 用這輩子所有聽過學過罵過的髒話也無法形容我心中的X 

 

 

壞天氣

冰冷的空氣　雨水落進我和你　強忍著淚水的眼睛
都不想分離　為什麼要在這裡　表演不在乎的一齣戲

我們該好好談的不只是天氣　解不開僵局
我們既然有傷害彼此的力氣　為什麼不努力

＊愛情讓人靠得太近　忘了留點餘地
　孩子氣　其實我只是輸不起
　我們淋著大雨不知　何時才能放晴
　壞天氣　逃開了彼此　雨也不會停

Repeat All Once

先開口的人算不算不爭氣　有過甜蜜現在要有點勇氣
伸手拉住你　留你陪著我　等待天晴

oh............yeah!!!!  I am feeling quite happy and sexy now..as i've finished most part of my branding report and am listening to a super-sexy song by J-lo!

 

I'm dancing and singing and swinging and chatting with my good sis in Strathclyde, Natasha, about which club we are going when i go back to TW!!  SO COOL~~~~

 

 

 

Alright..i know it's not a new trick, but as long as im feeling good, who cares..hahaha!!

 

well...thank God that I've almost finished one assignment, the branding thing! It seemed to be much easier and more comprehensive than the bloody strategy one!!

 

But i will figure all these out...as i've run through all these up-and-downs and survived as who i am now..ha! (thank God really!!!)

 

Today I'd met a Canadian guy saying to me that almost every gal he met in London studied either business or fashion and commenting that

as far as he knew, almost every of them doesn't have much in their brains and very little creativity!!!

 

ha, what a sad story! I feel sorry for that!

 

However, i can't deny that he was saying the truth!  There are actually tones of asians here who have days to fool around and money to spend,

who cares what the hell he or she stuides, as long as they are studying in "London"...and ..."FASHION"..WHICH SOUNDS QUITE FASHIONABLE...RIGHT?!!!

 

maybe he had expected that i might get pissed off by what he said...but ha, actually i was not!

i am sure i would if i am what i was when i was in the uni; however, i've grown out of that bad-temper (almost) and felt quite tolerent and open-minded now!

 

After all, he was talking the truth, and the guy had no idea about ME, so why getting pissed off by such a silly thing, as there are so many interesting and exciting things

waiting out there for me to enjoy and explore now!  

 

Byebye to those upsetting sadnesses, byebye to the gloomy depressive moodiness,

Byebye to those old dogs who can not play new tricks,

Byebye to all those agrees and disagrees which had driven me crazy once!!!

 

who cares?  why not?  so what???

 

i wanna dance, i wanna dance, i wanna get completely freaking out now..haha!

 

 

 

It's funny 'cause for a while I walked around with a smile
But deep inside I could hear voices telling me
this ain't right Don't you know it's not for you
I always knew what I had to do But it's hard to get away
Because I love you I just tried to stay I used to say
I couldn't do it But I did it After telling everybody that
I wasn't with it Though it brings tears to my eyes
I can feel it And I know inside I'm gonna be alright
I said I couldn't do it But I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn't with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes I can feel it
And that voice inside says I'm gonna be alright
Friends of mine say to me They say you got control
over me You're not alone
I played my part I saw the way you were from the start
Could I expect so much from you You had a girl
when I first met you Did the best that you could do
Now I realize that I can't change you I used to say
I couldn't do it But I did it After telling everybody
that I wasn't with it Though it brings tears to my eyes
I can feel it An d I know inside I'm gonna be alright
I said I couldn't do it But I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn't with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes
I can feel it And that voice inside says
I'm gonna be alright Said I wouldn't walk away Somedays
I want to stay But leaving you is what
I need to do to be okay Never thought it would be true
Me livin' without you But now it's time for me to make a
move I used to say I couldn't do it But I did it
After telling everybody that
I wasn't with it Though it brings tears to my eyes
I can feel it And I know inside I'm gonna be alright
I said I couldn't do it But I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn't with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes I can feel it
And that voice inside says I'm gonna be alright

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生命靈數6的人

靈數6的瘦身決心：
生命靈數6的人具備有善於照顧別人勝過自己的特質，因此他們往往會貼心的為家人、情人準備營養與健康的食物。
可是他們卻往往忽略疼惜自已的身體，而導致自己過的不健康的生活。如果你覺得因為持續照顧別人而導致的身體上的壓力與負擔時，艾菲爾老師建議你用聽音樂的方式消除壓力，同時獲得新的能量，以便在生活中獲得身、心、靈的平衡。
生命靈數6的人如果不能保持自我的健康與心靈的快樂，那麼你就無法持續的為他人創造更健康的生活。另外，談一場戀愛也會讓生命靈數6的人重新注意到自己體態的維持喔！

靈數6的瘦身秘訣：
生命靈數6的人深知要獲得身體真正的健康與和諧，只有體重的減輕是不夠的，因為他們追求的是身、心、靈的整合治療與提昇。他們除了希望達到完美的體態之外，也開始思考運用冥想、瑜珈的方式來達到瘦身的目標。
聽起來有點抽象，簡單的一句話就是生命靈數6的人認為不應該為了減重而瘦身，應該是為了達到更完美的人生而保持健康、輕盈的體態。

靈數6的人最在意的身體部位：
臀部
對生命數字6的人來說，保持臀部的堅挺結實以及臀部肌膚的平滑細嫩是非常理所當然的事，因為對他們來說能擁有像澳洲性感歌手凱莉米洛般的俏臀是非常性感以及夢寐以求的事情，讓艾菲爾老師非常慎重地為你介紹肉肉屁股變水蜜桃雙臀的方法：

1.一般人的臀部不是肉肉的塌陷在一起，要不然就是有很嚴重的橘皮現象。如果你希望自己的臀部緊實，建議你在日常生活中能站就不要坐；同時站的時候還要把雙腿輪流向後延伸，就可以達到緊實臀部的目的。
2.要改善臀部凹凸不平的橘皮組織，建議你用含有葡萄柚精油成份的去角質纖體霜，因為葡萄柚中所含有的特殊成份能夠促進人體的脂肪燃燒。洗完澡後輕輕的用雙手在雙臀部位由下往上按摩，以達到提臀與活化組織的功能。
3.無論是用運動的方式還是輔助以去角質纖體霜按摩，最重要的就是不要偷懶，總歸一句話愛美就要勤快，相信你也可以性感的穿上低腰牛仔褲喔。

明知道沒那麼難 明知道我可以作得到  明知道沒什麼大不了

三百個明知道為什麼還是沒做到!!

 

最近真是一整個處在緊張狀態

神經緊繃到一個不行

 

很想發洩可是我知道於事無補

很煩

 

放鬆的時候覺得天塌下來也沒啥大不了

緊張的時候連閒聊整個人都處於緊繃狀態

誰能了解這種矛盾與悲哀??!!!

 

放鬆放鬆放鬆  I can do it!!!

crazy~~~~~~

     i wanna see fashion shows!! i wanna go to V&A!! i wanna go shopping!!

     i wanna read London Lite and Vogue!! i wanna try some new recipes!!

     i wanna sit down chatting with friends with a big cup of extra-hot gingerbread Late!!

     i wanna walk and look around the fabulous city!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

  OMG! the worst thing u can ever do in London, the fabulously crazy city, is to stay at home without going anywhere!!!

             and that's just what i'm doing now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (crying!!)

 

  Well, breathe a deep breath! Now i wanna sit down and read and start working on my reports!

 

  Okay, Vic, so this is ur career, this is what u choose for urself, this is ur own decision, this is what u've aleways loved and enjoyed, 

                    accept it...cuz this is PART OF MY LIFE!!

 

 Thank you everybody!! Thank u for ur patience ur love and care, now i will be concentrated and really really looking forward to seeing you guys in TW...

 with strength and confidence!!

 

Good luck to every of us and see u soon!!!!!